Monday, December 13, 2010

The Winter Vortex

Winter is not my favorite time of year. I used to think I could live in the Northwest, but now know that I NEED sunlight.  When my God of the Sun perpetually hides in the clouds, I start to spiral down into a vortex of melancholy.

As everyone around me gets ramped up & excited about the December holidays, I start to experience:
  • Afternoon slumps with decreased energy and concentration
  • Carbohydrate cravings
  • Decreased interest in work or other activities
  • Increased appetite with weight gain
  • Increased sleep and excessive daytime sleepiness
  • Lack of energy
  • Slow, sluggish, lethargic movement
  • Social withdrawal
Recognize any of these?  They are the classic signs of S.A.D., or Seasonal Affective Disorder.  While my S.A.D. is mild & undiagnosed, it still exists & is often accompanied by:
  • An obsessive need to strangle anyone singing Christmas carols
  • The desire to smack the crap out of those well-meaning bell ringers
  • A huge variety of excuses as to why I cannot attend holiday parties
  • An absolute refusal to decorate my home with an embellished tree
  • A general inclination towards misbehavior 
Personally, I think the last "issue" (inclination towards misbehavior) is probably the one I need to nurture.

Or, maybe Winter is the time I need to slow down, focus on home, sit quietly & meditate.

What if all this angst is because my major totem animals are gone this time of the year?

Perhaps it's time to focus on some of my other totem animals:


Maybe the meditations of the week will be - "What would Jaguar do?" & "What would Wolf do?"

Off to meditation land!

Wild & Bright (ok, a bit dull) Blessings,



  1. I get every one of those SAD symptoms, although I've never been officially diagnosed, either. Strangely, though, I have zero trouble with cheerful people, the decorating, or the carols and bell-ringing around the holidays. I tend to think of this time more as my hibernation period. I withdraw from a lot of my social life in favour of more solitary pursuits. I find it does me a lot of good in the run of the year, even if not many people understand.

  2. I pretty much stayed in bed and cryed all of November..........I can relate. December 27th cant get here quick enough! I actually am making "Resolutions" this year even though I swore I wouldnt. But, I wont wait till the first of the year to start them....lets go meditate!

  3. @Ellison: Glad to hear that your hibernation period does you good. I think mine probably does too, it's just a matter of rolling with it.

  4. @Suzanne: Yes! Let's meditate!!! Sorry you cried through November. That sucks. I never make "resolutions", but in 2010 I did set some intentions - all but 1 came to fruition! The 1 left...more activity. Maybe New Year Intentions will be an upcoming blog post.